I’m such a control freak. I have been scared to death, cut open, poisoned, and basically made androgynous, but the hardest part of this whole ride has been about time. I was going to say waiting, but that’s only part of it. The concept of TIME covers waiting, healing, counting the days between treatments, knowing when I do or don’t or will or won’t need help, planning my days, planning my future, and waiting some more. TIME has been my largest struggle. I should have known it would be an issue when time stood still after my diagnosis. Then there was the wait for a surgery date, while fielding a…