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Timing is everything
I’m such a control freak. I have been scared to death, cut open, poisoned, and basically made androgynous, but the hardest part of this whole ride has been about time. I was going to say waiting, but that’s only part of it. The concept of TIME covers waiting, healing, counting the days between treatments, knowing when I do or don’t or will or won’t need help, planning my days, planning my future, and waiting some more. TIME has been my largest struggle. I should have known it would be an issue when time stood still after my diagnosis. Then there was the wait for a surgery date, while fielding a…
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Shit people say….
Today I’ve run into a sort of theme. It started innocently enough by an internet troll trying to sell me some multilevel supplement that “will change my life”. I was feeling somewhat adventurous so I responded, mostly to her marketing technique of trolling her friends’ facebook friends and hoping for a bite, and we got into a bit of a conversation about “what’s best for me.” I finally told her sorry, I can’t do her supplement because I’m doing chemo, and she responded with a list of people she knows who have died of cancer, and how it only affects the strongest people, etc etc etc. Her logic was way…
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The stigma of suffering alone
Many, many people have sent me notes and messages thanking me for being so open about my journey through cancer. To be honest, my first thought has always been – well did you expect any otherwise from me? I’ve always been a pretty open book, and I’ve rarely been one to keep my mouth shut on anything (although to be fair, I’m getting much much better at that as I grow older and wiser. Or maybe it’s just learning from my mistakes…. either way…..). But as I think further about it, I realize that the majority of people are not the same as me. Many people go through this alone,…