Change of plan!!!
Well I wish I could say it was a good change, but I’m not so sure it is.
I saw both of my oncologists today. Tomorrow is my last round of the worst chemo, which technically means that the next three weeks will be the hardest. Then things are supposed to get better as the next four rounds are a different kind, which aren’t supposed to make me as tired.
However, instead of having surgery as planned in the fall, now I need 28 rounds of radiation first. So surgery won’t happen until 6 weeks after THAT, so probably after Christmas. I now have to wait for my surgeon to tell me whether we can do reconstruction at the same time or not – with radiation it eliminates certain options, which means I may have to wait another 6 months after that for my second surgery.
To say I’m disappointed is a bit of an understatement. I was really looking forward to all this being over sooner than later. Apparently the plan is bigger than me or my understanding, so I have to wait it out and find something to do to keep my spirits up. The funny thing is I can’t go gung ho on working out because I have to keep my belly fat in order to build boobs from it!!!
For now, I just need to focus on tomorrow’s treatment and the next three weeks. I pray having my children home won’t make me lose my mind.
Thanks for all your encouragement and love. Now go get a mammogram.